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“How do I survive in a Forsaken Place” By Aliyah Goodbee
What does it mean to survive?
To be left along in the world striving
To take care of yourself after your loved ones
Are gone
Finding out that you are going insane because you’re all alone in this world
That is dark and disgusting
Missing your loved ones asking why were they taken from you
Waiting for their return, promising they wouldn’t leave my side
And I was promising that I wouldn’t leave theirs
But they broke that promise
Crushing my hopes from their ever returning
My heart is lled with regret, sorrow, heaviness, despair and anger.
But there is no happiness- Only just a tiny icker striving to survive.
But my heart is aching so much that I have to move away
From this forsaken place before I go insane.
Closing myself up in a box not letting anyone touch my heart
So I don’t become fragile and breakdown
In order to survive I must allow myself to show emotions that is my way of
Survival.
But when I moved I met this person
Who strangely enough became my friend despite the bad times we’ve been through.
She always stuck by my side
She always saw right through my mask that I tried so hard to conceal
I was always cold-hearted towards that person but when that person was sad and needed comfort Tragically enough I was always by her side
Comforting her sad and forsaken soul I didn’t comprehend why I was comforting her
Telling her everything will be alright.
Until I realized she reminded me of my loved one,
This person reminded me of my loved one
And she became my loved one
But I hated the fact that I loved two people who seemed the same.
I was betraying the person who was opening up to me this person’t life has been hard as well
As losing her loved one
She never portrayed that person towards me.
I hated the fact how she was treating me and how I was treating her.
I wanted to change that and hide my secret but one day she found out
Thus my world began to crumble Again saying where did I go wrong? Why did I have to move here?
Why did I have to meet her?
But she never stopped loving me
Even though she knew I had someone else in my heart she never lost faith in me
That I would also come to love her
She helped me survive my loss, my grief, my anger, my everything.
She is now my everything. She is my savior, he one who helped me survive in this disgusting world.
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